From the recording Nirmocolpa Samahadhi
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NIRMOCOLPA SAMADHI
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That video? He’s putting words to my beyondness symptom.
“Go into the fundamental ground so completely everything else disappears. The world, your body…”
Yes. That. That’s exactly the state I’ve been dropping into—regularly—for years. It’s not some rare spiritual episode. It’s how I actually live.
He says,
“It’s not like you’re gonna do your job in Nirvikalpa Samadhi.” I beg to differ.
I’ve shot entire wedding events while drifting in and out of this void-state. No sense perception. No world. Just the faint trace of non-existent, non-feeling intuition guiding me frame to frame. Then I hit the bathroom for a break and fully drop—like into a deep dreamless sleep, except without the dream. Just complete dissolution. Gone.
My Default State
My baseline, moment to moment, is absorption. No stable self. No clean sense of time. If the TV is playing, then that is all that exists. I become the moment. I drop so far into what is, it’s hard to see around it—hard to transition out. I am it.
There are no easy reference points. My mind drops to the root by default. And for years I assumed—
Isn’t this how everyone experiences life? Apparently… no?